Life itself contain many different relationships. Relationship with our family, relationship with our love one, relationship with our friends, relationship with our colleague and many more. Even the relationship we had with the shop keeper down the road. Maintaining a relationship is hard enough but having a good relationship is even harder. It require not just surface interaction, it require a more indepth understanding of the person. But all this can only be achieve if one is willing. I got to admit I too fail at trying to maintain a good relationship with the people around me, but I realize I was not able to. Due to many reason. I am sorry to all that I fail to maintain a good relationship with.

Side note: have you ever wondered what goes thru my head when your phone ring? Is it time for me to really let go? Often you say to me "everyone ask you to stay away from me. Why don't you do it?" I often ask myself do you really want me to do it? I am losing myself slowly. Who am I? Where am I? What do I want? What am I? Do you really understand what is going thru my mind? Do you?!?!? Or is it when I really lose myself then you will abandon ship and grab the next ship nearer to you? Do you know I tried to surpress and repress my feeling and emotion in the past? Now it is not I don't wish to do it. I jut don't wish to be numb about my emotions anymore.