Feeling so strange from within. Wondering is it due to everything that is happening around me? Or is it due to all the things that is slowly surfacing to me which i never knew about? Don't ask me how i feel, Cause all i know is i feel strange neither happy nor sad, neither agitated nor calm, neither nervous nor excited, neither anxious nor patient. It just feel strange to me that is all. All along in my life, I have been hiding under cover, just to protect myself. Recently, people who are closer to me told me that all i think about is ME, Myself and I, they say that i never care about how others feel, everything i do, i just do it to my own benefit. Maybe to some of you out there, you might find that what i post here is also just Me, Myself n I. I dont really have much things to post about this feeling. All i know from within is, I am lost. I am broken due to the path i chose. The path i had chose to walk half year ago had broken many hearts, including the one i love the most. In everything that i did wrong, i slowly push that loving, caring and supporting heart of hers to someone else. I have made everything into a big mess, by involving alot of people into it. Well the final outcome is that, I am unable to provide anything for her now with the state that i am in, unlike the other party who is able to provide her with a bright future. Many a times i really wish to give up, not because i dont love her anymore. It is just because i want her to have the happiness she deserve that is far more.
All that aside, 2010. The year which i will learn to peel off all my cover which have been restricting my growth to my full potential.
My prayer to you God.
God may Your kingdom come, may Your will be done on earth as it is on heaven. God use this broken soul of Yours to help in Your kingdom growth. Take me, mold me, guide me, walk with me. God this journey is going to be tough, Walk with me please God.
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